Sunday, August 1, 2010

She said you're smooth, and good with talking....

Husband;

I made a decision last night. I had my reasons for it, and while I know they do not make it right, it was something that I needed to do. I hope you can understand that, and forgive me that the decision was made without you.

I also hope that you've had to make that decision at some point. Whether or not you came to the same conclusion won't matter to me. What matters is that you've had the opportunity to make that decision for yourself. That you've come to that bridge, and chosen whether or not to cross it based on what YOU wanted to do, not based on what others told you to do, or what you've been told is the right choice.

That was why I had to make the choice I did. I won't deny that I wanted that choice. I'm not daft enough to believe that ultimately the end justifies the means and all that stuff. But I needed to choose that for me. I needed to know that making that choice wouldn't end God's love for me; that making that choice would not suddenly turn me into a bad person.

There will be consequences, as all choices have whether they were good or bad, right or wrong. And I am ready to face those consequences.

I hope you can forgive me for the choice I made. It's not that I love you any less, because I don't. I know I love you to the ends of the earth and beyond.

Always yours;

Just a girl, someday a wife.

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