Saturday, July 2, 2011

Oh, to have the desires of my heart.

Father,

I long for a husband like Boaz; a man who puts you above all else and trusts in you no matter the situation. A man whose heart is after your own and whose passion to live for you shines in all he does.

I want a man who loves me so much that it pains him, just as it will pain me to love him that much.

I'm still frightened sometimes, afraid that I'll have no choice but to settle for a man who is only half-hearted in his passion for You and who will only sort of love me. Those fears remain ever present and increasingly stronger the longer it is that I don't meet a man who falls into my heart's desire.

Despite that fear, I trust you, Father. I trust that you will not let me down and that you will provide me with my heart's desire. It's hard. Trusting when not seeing results. But I guess that's why it is called faith.

Help me to stand firm in that trust despite my fears. Help me to be strong and to hear your voice and feel your gentle nudge when it is time.

Your plan is the perfect plan and because of that, I will wait for you instead of taking it into my own hands.

Love you Daddy.

Just a Girl, Someday a Wife