Husband;
I'll admit it, I totally overreacted on that whole Christmas Dinner thing. I suppose he was a little elusive those days, but in hindsight it was more because of his extreme distaste for the time of year than it was to do with me.
We had a long talk and it was good.
It's New Year's Eve tonight, and he is off with his buddies playing DnD. I'm still not sure I'm okay with that, but I don't have much of a choice. I guess I worry that he isn't really all that focused on me; that though he cares, I don't hold much importance for him.
Of course, that could all be silliness. On the other hand, New Year's Eve with girls has always led to bad things with him, so I can kind of understand that.
I hate not being able to read minds. It would make this so much easier.
Love you.
Just a Girl, Someday a Wife
Friday, December 31, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Welcome to Dumpsville, Population? One.
Dear Husband;
I have a gut feeling that a break-up is on the way. All because I invited him to Christmas Dinner, and he didn't want to tell me no. In his mind, Christmas Dinner is serious business. In my mind, not so much so. But I can't help but feel like because he feels it is, he thinks I must feel it is. And since we're not really that serious... well, you get where I'm going with this.
I can't shake the gut feeling.
He said he'd call Christmas Day, and he never did. We texted off and on throughout the day, but that was it.
He hasn't really said anything to indicate it's over, but I can't shake this feeling in my gut. The one that tells me he has lost interest and is about to call it all off.
I'm not ready for it to end. I enjoy his company too much.
But I think I need to face the facts. He doesn't want to be serious, and no matter how much he likes me, that's not going to change that fact.
He thinks I'm more serious in it than I am.
And for his thinking, I think I'm about to get dumped.
My heart is caught up in my throat.
I'm scared. I just want to hear him say he wants to see me. Or he misses me.
But let's face it. The guy who hated going more than twenty-four hours without seeing me has made it clear he hasn't wanted to see me at all in the last three days. And pretty much hinted he won't want to see me tomorrow either.
And in my experience, those are heavy indications that the train to Dumpsville is about to pull into my station.
This sucks.
Love you.
Just a Girl, Someday a Wife
I have a gut feeling that a break-up is on the way. All because I invited him to Christmas Dinner, and he didn't want to tell me no. In his mind, Christmas Dinner is serious business. In my mind, not so much so. But I can't help but feel like because he feels it is, he thinks I must feel it is. And since we're not really that serious... well, you get where I'm going with this.
I can't shake the gut feeling.
He said he'd call Christmas Day, and he never did. We texted off and on throughout the day, but that was it.
He hasn't really said anything to indicate it's over, but I can't shake this feeling in my gut. The one that tells me he has lost interest and is about to call it all off.
I'm not ready for it to end. I enjoy his company too much.
But I think I need to face the facts. He doesn't want to be serious, and no matter how much he likes me, that's not going to change that fact.
He thinks I'm more serious in it than I am.
And for his thinking, I think I'm about to get dumped.
My heart is caught up in my throat.
I'm scared. I just want to hear him say he wants to see me. Or he misses me.
But let's face it. The guy who hated going more than twenty-four hours without seeing me has made it clear he hasn't wanted to see me at all in the last three days. And pretty much hinted he won't want to see me tomorrow either.
And in my experience, those are heavy indications that the train to Dumpsville is about to pull into my station.
This sucks.
Love you.
Just a Girl, Someday a Wife
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